Dear Mama…

Dear mama….

When I was young
me and my mama had beef
Seventeen years old
kicked out on the streets
Though back at the time
I never thought I’d see her face
Ain’t a woman alive
that could take
my mama’s place
Suspended from school
and scared to go home
I was a fool
With the big boys
breakin all the rules
I shed tears
with my baby sister
over the years we was poorer
than the other little kids
And even though
we had different daddies
the same drama
When things went wrong
we’d blame Mama
I reminisce on the stress I caused
it was hell
huggin on my mama
from a jail cell
runnin’ from the police
Mama catch me
put a whoopin to my backside
And even as a crack fiend, Mama
You always was a queen, Mama
I finally understand
For a woman it ain’t easy
tryin’ to raise a man
You always was committed
A poor single mother
on welfare
tell me how you did it?
There’s no way
I can pay you back
but the plan is to
show you that I understand

you are appreciated

ain’t nobody tell us it was fair
No love from my bio daddy
cause the coward wasn’t there
I didn’t cry
cause my anger
Wouldn’t let me feel for a stranger
They say I’m wrong
and I’m heartless
but all along
I was lookin’ for my father
he was gone
I hung around
with the thugs
And even though they sold drugs
They showed a young brother love
I moved out
and started really hangin
I needed money of my own
so I started slangin
even though I sell rocks
It feels good
puttin money in your mailbox
I love payin’ rent when the rent is due
I hope you got the diamond necklace
that I sent to you
cause when I was low
you was there for me
And never left me alone
because you cared for me
And I could see you
comin’ home after work late
You’re in the kitchen
tryin’ to fix us a hot plate
You just workin’
with the scraps you was given
And Mama made miracles
every Thanksgivin’
But now the road got rough
you’re alone
You’re tryin’ to raise two bad kids
on your own

And there’s no way I can pay you back

but my plan Is to show you that I understand:
you are appreciated

Pour out some liquor and I reminisce
cause through the drama
I can always depend
on my mama
And when it seems
that I’m hopeless
You say the words
that can get me back in focus
When I was sick
as a little kid
To keep me happy
there’s no limit
to the things you did
And my childhood memories
Are full of all the
sweet things you did for me
and even tho I act crazy
I gotta thank ya cuz ya made me
There are no words
that can express
how I feel
never kept a secret
You always stayed real
And I appreciate
how you raised me
And all the extra love
that you gave me
I wish I could take
the pain away
If you can make it through the night
there’s a brighter day
Everything will be alright
if you hold on
It’s a struggle every day
gotta roll on
And there’s no way I can pay you back

but my plan
Is to show you that I understand:
you are appreciated mom

PAC